Still Waking Up Here

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I’ve been feeling a lot of compassion for myself lately, as I reflect back on this life. From the mountaintop of my fifth decade of existence, I’m well past the fantasies of, “What if my spiritual gifts had actually been seen and encouraged as a child? What might’ve been?” I get it. I frightened people. And if they weren’t frightened, it was probably because they had a comfortable category for me, “She’s such an odd little one, isn’t she?”

I did my best. And even though there appeared to be no mold for me slip into, I’m still waking up here.

This brings me to a similar place of compassion and understanding for others who are different. Seems for one reason or another we didn’t make the cut – Team (conditioned) Human wasn’t for us. So we carved out a life for ourselves… oh hell, who am I kidding? I didn’t carve out anything here. I’ve survived all these years (barely) by the Grace of my Creator and the whole host of angels who’ve guided me. All I can say is, my spirit helpers must be receiving many honorable medals and awards for their dedicated service. It just couldn’t have been easy for them.

Throughout my life, every single time I started to feel the pull of the quick-sand conditioning, and begin to strategically outline a plan to fit in here, they would come and “shake” me awake again.

It worked. I still don’t fit. But thanks to them, my courage to be me has increased tenfold. It seems the world may be in need of our gifts now.

Rise up, odd little ones. Our gift is to break the mold… simply by being who we are.

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One of the many songs for the collective that came from this Divinely Feminine Presence. She is determined to break through. And She is.

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What’ll You Do   

What have I become to you?
Just a passing thought to nowhere
Yet we both keep waking up
Waking up here
You seem to know right where you’re going
As long as I stay in your dreams
But things have changed, I’m on the scene
What’ll you do with me?

My presence disturbs
As well as procures
A different kind of love you see
You gotta decide
Do I help or hinder your life?

What’ll you do (the heart)
What’ll you do (the heart)
What’ll you do (the heart speaks)
What’ll you do with me?

A stranger arrives at your door
She says it’s ‘new and improved’
But it’s not for sale
And not for your convenient use
She says I’m here to tell the truth
I’m here to fell your plastic tree of life
Just let me water your roots, dead or alive
Makes no difference to me
Try on these new eyes for size
How ’bout a pair of ears to hear
Remember love?
Remember harmony? (echo)
Remember the heart… speaks

by Eileen Meyer


IMG_4983Eileen is a lifetime experiencer, mystic, and songstress. After many Oneness experiences, she receives guiding messages for our evolution in consciousness, and is here to help others remember this inner cosmic doorway too.

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Hidden in You – a Poem

A home for old stars

People are going to be very shocked

I speak of the ones

Who choose not to see

Except their following

Of the bouncing ball

From screen to screen

Lift your eyes up

And away

Hone in

On something real

Hear it

Taste it

Feel

Your time to rearrange is now

This crossing is clear

In the earth and sky

But only if Soul

Is alive

And engaged

Not just a word

That streams in a meme

On your Facebook page

It’s a game

Take your eyes off the ball

Find your ground

And the sound of truth

Find Home

Did you know?

All along

The song of the earth and stars

Was hidden in you

 

© 2019, Eileen Meyer

“It’s in You” by Eileen Meyer


IMG_4983.jpgEileen’s website
Soul Weaving Sessions and Support for Experiencers
Facebook
Eileen Meyer Music on iTunes:
or Music on CDBaby
Eileen’s book on Amazon – Koyopa Contact Within: The Plumed Serpent Rises
Koyopa: (n) lightning [Momos]; inner soul (receives supernatural messages)
from the Language of Mayan K’iche’
New Translating Infinity YouTube Channel

You can support Eileen’s work by sharing this with others, or if you feel moved to help her with this project of spiritually-empowering digital content and events, you can become a member at: Patreon.com/eileenmeyer.  Or you may consider making a donation via Paypal. Gratitude, and blessings to you on your own journey home.

Meeting the Beloved Within

 

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Ascent to Love by Rassouli

Since my full Kundalini awakening that occurred in 1998, I have been integrating. Make no mistake. It takes many years to more deeply understand and reorient to the new self and its relationship with people, places and things. Unless one knows someone in their midst that has experienced the same or similar transformational events, we are pretty much on our own in this reorientation process. It is a breathtakingly solitary path. Translating it to those who have not experienced, or at least studied these things, is near impossible. In addition, I have also found that if we are a woman, it may be even more challenging. Our Western cultural conditioning seems unwilling to witness, and therefore welcome, individuation in feminine form.

This merging with the Divine is available to all. Although, how many of us want to truly know this Presence directly? I did. Perhaps the only difference between one who has experienced this, and one who has not, is truly wanting it. Back then I asked, begged, screamed, pleaded, and prayed in every conscious moment to know God. And IT responded. You see, back then I wanted to die, but suicide wasn’t the way for me. So for those who want to end their life as they know it, this is a way to die to all that you thought you knew, to restore your Divine Light, and stay.

Last night, as I was researching for my upcoming April talk in Southern Colorado, I landed on the quote below. Validation is like food when it arrives, especially as a wandering, hungry-for-a-way-to-explain-it-on-Earth experiencer. At the time I had no solid reference for the Beloved. Now, after 21 years, I do.

“Union with the Inner Beloved fuses both the conscious and the unconscious, the objective and the relational, the particular and the transcendent. In accomplishing this union, one experiences love below the levels of persona (that which we receive from and project back to society), ego (that which we believe we are), shadow (that which we believe we are not), myth (those symbols we share with all humanity) to the level of Self (that which we really are, the central essence of the soul).”

Man and His Symbols, ed. Carl G. Jung et al (New York: Dell, 1964), pp. 157-254.
The Inner Beloved ©2004 David J. Wilson
Updated December 4, 2004

An excerpt from my book, Koyopa: Contact Within, The Plumed Serpent Rises

“…An endless stream of my guttural responses to Infinity transitioned into silence. Finally, after a slight shift in composure by returning upright in the chair, I found my words, “What do I name this Love? I need to know. Please.” I said it with a tone and resolve I had not previously known within my being. There was no hesitation as it responded with a decisive force. Pictures rapidly burst into my mind’s eye – just like when I was a child in the sandbox. Except this time, there was far more light, far more acceleration, and far more pressure in the center of my head.

The light incinerated my eyes as the pictures and movie clips rushed by so rapidly that I could not make out any single frame. Then it abruptly stopped. It zoomed in on the face of an exquisitely, beautiful young man standing before me. And it stopped again.

I gasped and cried out from the sheer intensity, as well as the deep pain and recognition of this presence. I knew it well. This exquisite heart before me had rushed in with the force of a thousand waterfalls of firelight – with the singular intention to blend with my own little embers. I cried out again, as if it were my final breath, “Please, please. What do I name you? This Love? This Presence? I feel you. I know you. I love you [weeping]… no words.”

There was a very long pause. I composed myself, and naturally rocked to and fro with the energies. Soon, in its own perfect rhythm within our cocreated song, I heard-felt the response very clearly, “Beloved.” He boomed and radiated into my consciousness and every cell of my physicality, “I AM here.” With this, I wept even more. I again lost my capacity to think, process, and find a suitable stopping place in which to file the experience or the Presence. I was aware that there was a distinct choice. If I resisted the oncoming force of these searing currents of light, I would have succumbed to an indescribable, fiery pain. If I continued to surrender, it would be terrifying, but I knew that I would survive…”  

Back then, I found that music was the most satisfying way to explain. After three days on the couch, in and out of sleep and completely delirious from this divine meeting, this song arrived:

“Beloved,” Written and Performed by Eileen Meyer. Produced by Larry Mitchell.

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Eileen’s website
Soul Weaving Sessions and Support for Experiencers
Facebook
Eileen Meyer Music on iTunes:
or Music on CDBaby
Eileen’s book on Amazon – Koyopa Contact Within: The Plumed Serpent Rises
Koyopa: (n) lightning [Momos]; inner soul (receives supernatural messages)
from the Language of Mayan K’iche’
New Translating Infinity YouTube Channel

You can support Eileen by sharing this with others, or if you feel moved to help her with the many-layered costs of producing and sharing this variety of spiritually-empowering digital content and events, please subscribe at: Patreon.com/eileenmeyer.  Or you may make a donation via Paypal. Thank you.