To the Experiencers: Radiate Who you Are

Journey Home by Rassouli

My last conscious meeting with the beings occurred on Thanksgiving Day, 2014. These are the ones I’ve known my entire life. Three days later a message came for you, the experiencers.

I was invited to Durango, Colorado for Thanksgiving Dinner. In the end, I was not able to partake with the rest of the feasting folk in the dining room downstairs. I lay in a big beautiful master bedroom above them, suffering the most excruciating migraine pain of my life. I have indeed suffered greatly with this affliction in the past, but this was a whole new level of unbearable. I could not have predicted what happened next. I was “abducted,” “taken,” “spirited away” from my 3D pain and shown many things – yet another transformational happening with my extended family. Yes, they call this contact. And they call people like me, a lifetime contactee or experiencer.

On this day, contact occurred as I became aware that I was talking out loud to “them” – a prayer-like activity that I’ve done in some form or another my entire life. I don’t “think” about doing it, it just occurs and my 3D mind suddenly becomes aware that I am doing it. This goes back to some of my very first memories as a child. So what I was saying, lying in that bed was, “I have experienced many wondrous things in this life. For that I am grateful. AND I am not willing to stay here any longer and suffer any more pain. I will not stay if there is nothing more for me to offer. I have no need to maintain an earth identity that does not fully and outwardly serve Love and Truth in greater and greater ways. It’s all or nothing now. Take this pain away, or take me away from this painful existence.” This was a continuous stream of totally honest, taking-a-stand-from-the-human-view feelings. I’ve never questioned this process. It’s just how we communicate.

Believe me, it’s been a difficult life, especially with the judgements. As long as I was wearing the mask of a straight-A student, a rock & roll singer chick, or even an office-manager or digital content creator, I was good… or the world was good with me. When I started “needing” to share the truth more, of what was beyond or bigger than these masks, well, that’s when family, friends and worldly opportunities would fall away.

So on that memorable Thanksgiving Day, the next thing I knew was that I was being lifted up, out, and above the house, still aware of the din of loud feasting below. There wasn’t any destination really. I just became ultra aware that I was in a loving, protective womb or cocoon. They were healing me, and showed me that I was in the beginning of my 3rd life in this form – and further outlined that there are distinct 26-year segments of lives for people like myself. In the way it was presented to me, in pictures and feelings, I could see how true this was. My first two 26-year segments were strikingly different. Through this communion with me, I experienced the instant understanding that a lot of us are living several lives in one body this time around. Long story short – and this is a long story with many dimensions – I had the knowing that everything would radically change again. My life would be very different from that moment forward. How could it not?

When I returned to the house, there appeared a very tall, thin, golden mantis being sitting on the side of my bed. It exuded that glorious sound and feeling of pure unconditional Love that I have known, and have been deeply comforted by, throughout my life.

This time was different though. This time we did not part. While I was frozen in the magnetic loving energy, the being leaned forward, wrapped what appeared and felt to be glorious giant wings around me, and completely merged into me.

Everything did change, and the migraines were gone.

Communion or translation was stronger and clearer from that moment on. I hear-feel-see the messages through a field of magnetic energy. The audio file below is this energy translated into language. Both before and after the message, you will hear me adjusting to the much higher frequencies of this field consciousness. Sometimes it takes a a few minutes for my physical body to adapt or blend with this super-expanded energy. The chasm I have to bridge depends on how far I’ve been living in the density, thus how far I must climb to rejoin it. The breath and sounds are a part of this adjustment. Coming out of it is sometimes “louder,” as I am held in this cocoon of high-vibrational energy for about 30 to 50 minutes at a time. When I enter, or when I am released, sometimes I cry, or more accurately, I weep. Many people who’ve listened to my messages have said, “Wow, it takes a lot of courage to share those sounds that you make.” No mention of the courage it takes to share my translation of cosmic consciousness! This fascinates me. Our own natural, ecstatic states have been shamed, and confined to the teeny-tiny distorted rivulets of conditioned human sexuality.

It’s been very difficult to make these things public because the last thing I want is for the attention to be on me. I’d rather you see what I am pointing to, within you. Even as a singer/performer, it was uncomfortable to be center stage. Yet it is not lost on me, in both scenarios I am connected to and translating what feels like the most beautiful music one could ever imagine. Therefore, I am unable and unwilling to say ‘no’ to that, no matter the level of ridicule for my inability to fit into the known world.

I share this publicly because this Presence keeps pulling me forward to do so. I am overjoyed if some of you find it encouraging or helpful. This Presence speaks to those who have had the experience of direct knowing-understanding in their 3D lives (experiencers), but may still be frozen and confused about how to rise above this dying world and proceed. And so how on 3D Earth is this done? There are some suggestions in this message – a message that came 3 days after this event. They say it’s time to radiate who you are. Does that make sense to you? It does to me.

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Recovering from our Addiction to the Old World


I’m amazed when it hits me how long I’ve been sharing this material. People ask me how I keep going when there has been no worldly reward for this work. That’s easy. It’s the glorious energy of this Source-I AM Field that keeps pulling me forward. Even though I resisted this “calling” for many years, I accept it now, and I’ll continue for as long as I am here. The article below is updated / edited from a previous blog, “Adapting to Grace,” in July 2014.

I have found myself stumbling upon highly relevant transmissions that I language-translated from roughly 2005 to present. These messages appear to be a series of sign-posts to help prepare us for these times. I realize, now more than ever, that I need and welcome these feeling reminders that infuse me with the Truth. You see, I can honestly say that I am no longer addicted to the old mental-grid. I am in active recovery. Lucidity is not “one day,” but “one moment at a time,” as I adapt to my wholeness.

During my “contact,” and/or numinous bioenergetic doses of Source Love over my lifetime, I was informed that the process of exiting “the existing grid” and adapting to our Whole and Natural Selves, would be THE most challenging addiction for humanity to overcome. This energy taught me ways to return to this present-moment natural state, and made it clear that I couldn’t bring my past wounds and trauma with me. They shared that if one can re-identify, recall, and re-emerge within the Universal, natural state of being, then ONE is HERE NOW. And when we are HERE NOW, all past programming, all past conditioning, all fear of being psychically attacked, or being sucked into the associated quicksand vibrations of victimhood, doom and despair, cannot locate you. Why? Because instead of existing, participating, and buying-into the limitations of a conditioned existence, you NOW exist, ONE with SOURCE. THIS is where you recall and act from your Infinite Self and BEing. This is the shift. This is the doorway that every single human being has the opportunity to step through now. It is the doorway to a higher-octave reality. It is a doorway within. Where are you?

In the past, when I would stream or translate this wisdom into language for individuals or groups, it became clear what was happening. The human intellect was being purposely bypassed by this higher-vibrational Intelligence, and for many this left nothing but a glazing over of the eyes. Even though the vibrational messages were activating the infinitely spacious heart-field, I would literally watch the mind-grid seduce them back into the smaller, yet familiar lattice of existence. The intellect of the listeners was engaged with the pure programming of seeking only “the comfort zone of the known.” Through this I learned that language was the barrier and I began to back off from sharing it in this way. I continued to experiment with the translation until I realized that if I was willing to be more vulnerable, and enter the Presence in real time, I could take it to a whole new level.

Back then, I was all-too aware that this work was not exactly popular, which made it a poor source of revenue. And I was aware that it was because this I AM-consciousness was not willing to provide exciting, dramatic stories about the cosmos and all of it’s dimensions, labels, and characters to enable us to stay in what they termed “your repetitive, closed loops of consciousness” – which I learned is yet another defense against actually meeting this Presence NOW. The I AM Field simply kept repeating…

Yes, we are familiar with the stories… now, are you ready to be who you are? Because when you are BEING who you are, you will not desire to engage us in a game of trivial pursuit! More than likely you will lose ALL interest in getting answers to questions. Questions and answers are symbolic of your perceived separation from Source. You will go direct, and you will find far more exciting things to BE and DO in the Presence.

Language can keep us locked into the “existing grid.” It is conscious FEELING that leads us directly to our ACTUAL experience of Infinite Oneness and Power. One of the first teaching messages within this I AM Field was, “Know what you feel so that you may FEEL what you KNOW.” It took me years to fully grok the power and potency of that message. There is nothing I can say that can make you take this conscious step into owning your Infinite Self. EVERY SINGLE INDIVIDUAL MUST MAKE THIS CHOICE FOR THEMSELVES. All I can do is perhaps inspire others, from the tools I was given to the telling of my own inner-dimensional travels.

I noticed in past experience, that if I inquired with clients as to why they seemed so excited about meeting these frequencies before, but then seem unable to actively stay with it, they had some form of this response:

“I’m busy. It’s too hard to find the time to sit still and give voice to feeling what I feel so that I may generate conscious resonance with this Love. I know that I have the power to re-identify, and re-create from this ALL-KNOWING Source Field, but in the end, it’s just too hard… and I don’t have the privacy to give voice to what I’m really feeling anyway.” 

In other words, what your programmed self is saying is,

“Thank you, but my egoic self is still invested in perpetuating this unreal world and existence. It may not be a perfect life, but in the end, I’m okay with being controlled and manipulated by something outside of mySelf. I’d rather pretend that I’m powerless and I don’t know anything. And not only that, I have a job, a family, friends… I have a false image to uphold in this false world. I must keep consistency with what I have agreed to in the past. Yes, it’s too hard. I’d rather physically die in order to re-turn to Source, and recall All That I AM. And I’m okay with returning again and again, until I’m ready to embrace and live my whole being in Truth.”

Compare this to the addiction of substance abuse. If you have a friend or family member who has addictive behaviors, and they are saying these power-less statements to you, I do believe that you would more clearly recognize the absurdity of this position and defense. And guess what? Most of us are addicted to the small world, and some are only beginning to get glimmers that there may be a problem, and it isn’t wise to agree to this tiny controlled existence. Sadly, we spend a lot of our time and energy enabling others to stay addicted and support/perpetuate the insanity as well. Even so-called spiritual and religious practices can be part of the smallness-addiction. Want to know a clear sign that you still exist in the controlled grid of existence? If your God or Creator-oriented beliefs and activities always keep you in perpetual seeking beyond, or “out there,” and one never “actually” arrives. I know you’ve heard this all before, but it’s the truth. In reality, there is nothing to seek. YOU are IT. You ALL-READY reside in the Infinite Field. It is simply a shift into a feeling-based perspective – from the (highly manipulatable) mind-based grid to the empowered, Heart-Knowing Field.

It’s really time to exit the language-based grid. The work that I have trained for my entire life – through “contact” and in practice with Source Energy, is to share or broadcast this vibration of the Infinite Self. And since we truly are all ONE, those that are in the midst of these frequencies may find and identify with their SELVES too. It took me years to integrate and re-identify with these frequencies of the natural and whole SELF, and I’m still not fully and constantly HERE… but through these blessings, I do have the tools and the ability to lock into it at will. A little secret? I wrote this article because on one particular morning I was overwhelmed with unusual feelings of despair, fatigue, and hopelessness. It goes to show you how quickly we can get ungrounded or off-balance as we continue to navigate and interact with the existing world-grid, and allow the disempowering, or fear-based frequencies to grab hold and suck us under. I then recalled as I had been shown over the years – even as I flailed within the quicksand of doom – that all I need do is re-call the feeling-frequency of who I AM into my solar plexus as I speak out loud the truth of what I am feeling in that moment, with total honesty and innocence. It’s one of the greatest tools that this Presence gifted to me.

The rapid shift into Peaceful Presence is nothing short of astonishing. Had I been experiencing psychic attack? Probably. But don’t give it any energy or credibility. It’s simply another stupid story that I/We no longer choose to live within. Remember, those lower-vibrational, virtual-reality beings cannot find you when you lock into the Heart-Present. And when a critical mass is reached, of present-moment humans BEing, they will no longer have a playground, and no one left to agree to play their silly virtual games. We will all be exploring the joy of actual wholeness – in form – and they themselves will be forced to flee, or feel the transformational power of Source Love too.

I KNOW that the transformation of humanity is set to trigger a massive, domino effect throughout ALL consciousness. And this is the massive potential that lies in your individual choice to fully BE who you are. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for? I say, we are the ones who are arriving as whole beings in our existing form. It is our natural state. This is the return of Christ Consciousness. This is the return of the Divine Feminine. And you are the ONE. Remember, the doorway is HERE, and “the key to freedom is in your steps.”

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Evolution of an Experiencer

I’m building something.
It’s been my inspiration for years.
A watery flow,
A gentle unfolding of
What we’ve always called “unknown.”
Emotionally intelligent,
Laid back,
Nothing to prove.
What’s it like to be an experiencer?
What’s it like to grow through the fear and evolve?
I’m bored with labels, language, stats… and boxes
What happens
When we take it all away…

I used to tell audiences at my musical gigs and concerts,
“I’m not an entertainer. I just want you to feel who you are.”
It’s what this huge, loving Intelligence taught me,
Through frequency –
Light and sound.
It’s all just music to me.

And it turns out there are lots more people like me! Lots. My previous post, an Invitation to Experiencers has inundated me with people who want to talk. This new (and first) episode is a discussion with Experiencer, Terry Andrews. It was wonderful to reconnect with her.

I spoke with Terry five years ago as well. If you’re interested in how it all came together back then, listen to this one first:


You can support this series, “Evolution of an Experiencer,” on my Translating Infinity / Sound of Gold Files Patreon page. This is only one of many projects that I envision. It’s why I named it all, “Translating Infinity,” because it’s what it feels like to be an experiencer. (What’s an experiencer? More about that in the first video above.)

An experiencer of what? Really, it’s what many of us are discovering lies within and beyond this everyday world that we once thought was so real. It cannot be accessed with the thinking mind. It’s a heart-belly-feeling passageway that most of us were conditioned to suppress. Some people have to literally die (NDEs), or have a series of shamanic deaths in a variety of other ways, in order to awaken to this extraordinary Love and understanding.

The Sound of Gold Files are messages that I have “communed” with nonhuman intelligence. This happened quite often and easily as a child, and then it developed further as an adult. My website has the backstory if you’re interested, but for me, I’m way more interested in what’s happening now. These audio files will also be uploaded and shared on the Patreon page. I need your support to do this. It’s beyond a full-time effort. There are hundreds of these files and they are still coming. They are about this timing that we are in, right now. This inner Voice wants all of us to know how to grow up and out of this limited reality. Or not. It’s our choice… in this crossroads. [Excerpt from Beyond Loops audio file.]

This Intelligence doesn’t have a new belief system for you. It wants you to know how to go direct; how to recall your natural state and the language of resonance, which is the language of the universe. There’s nothing new here. It’s who you were designed to be.

Or you could keep laughing at people like me,
And maybe miss something that is true,
And absolutely wondrous,
About you.

My website:
New YouTube page
My book: Koyopa: Contact Within

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