I never seemed to fit into any category of human life in a comfortable way, until recently, when the false world started crashing down. I know that sounds strange, but stay with me, if you will. I still don’t have a proper word or phrase for what I am feeling, except that it feels like, through the cracks occurring in the false world, there is a mirrored opening that is occurring within us – a reemergence of a greater identity, meaning, and purpose that is rooted in what permeates ALL Life – Universal Love, Law, and Light.
At the beginning of this wandering life, like many, there was an innate knowing of who I was with a clear sense of interconnectedness with all. And I felt deeply loved. This was an important physical-feeling marker for me. Thankfully, I did not forget it. But I had help with the remembering part.
As a small child, beings that looked like tall golden angels visited and spoke to me. Not in words. I’ve since come to understand that communion is a natural language for human beings and that we are simply conditioned to shut it off; I know I was. If I spoke about the BIG LOVE of the angels and the variety of ways they took form, I was told to hush up (later in life, “shut up”) by the people around me. I noticed that my honesty, in general, was frowned upon or referred to as “wild imaginings.” Stop with the fantasies, they said, and enter the “real world” like everybody else.
When these angels, or messengers, came back in different forms and at different intervals in my childhood and adult life, they wanted to remind me of LOVE. But by then I was afraid. You see over time I had become so closed off from the BIG LOVE, that when this larger LOVE wanted to connect with me again, I could not recognize it because I had become dis-integrated with this greater frequency that represented my higher being or Soul. As a result, I would project my unconscious fears onto it as if it were a monster or demon. When this BIG LOVE tries to meet with us, all that is suppressed within rises to the surface, and we see only our own unconscious pain and trauma. This is why, as much as I tried, I never fit into the ET/UFOlogy boxes. I noted that some people seemed to loop inside the drama and fear of it all. Many experiencers are evolving past this stage and are seeing the greater gift from these messengers that have come over time. However, it seems that the highly profitable fear porn and the same UFOlogy rock stars who dominate in these arenas have kept the collective consciousness looping with them. There are many experiencers who are not invited to speak because they don’t fit the mold or projected profit margins of the business of UFOs. But I want you to know that many of us have discovered the deeper meaning and evolutionary arc of contact.
Over decades of these interactions, I learned that what we don’t “see” within, becomes projection, and it is even acted out in the outer world. That’s when we “see” and blame the bad guys out there for the rift between our natural state and all that we had disowned or rejected within ourselves. If it didn’t fit into what we were told, it went underground. If trauma, or simply our feminine nature was not allowed to be emotionally felt, expressed, and healed, it went underground. This is where the Divine (Feminine) Mother has been temporarily hidden. She is not just a beautiful statue or icon to be worshipped. She is real. She is our Divine Will. And no matter our gender, she is calling to be restored and rewoven into our consciousness again. When we speak the Truth (that sets us free), we can feel the resonance of this inner kiss as we break the spell of the “sleeping beauty” within us. And when She is uncovered, SHE will remarry (integrate) the Divine (Masculine) Father and ultimately restore our Divine (Soul) Child that is re-birthed into our whole and natural design once again.
It took the span of a lifetime, but now I see that the Truth lights up inside the Kingdom within, thereby opening the eyes that see and the ears that hear. This is when we not only see LOVE, we can also see where evil thrives in this false world. And for many, they would be shocked to see that it lives in all the opposite places you might think.
For the most part, my family, friends, teachers, and yes, church, all taught and demonstrated a smaller kind of love to me. It’s still love, but they talked about it as if it were BIG LOVE. That was the most confusing part for me – the difference between pure felt LOVE and complicated, twisted stories of what they said was love. Same thing with what they called the “real world.” It was all so upside down to me. There are many ways I refer to this Presence, but for the most part, I try not to use the word “God” anymore. Why? I don’t have an issue with it, but I do recognize the old-world charge that it has for many. And also because in my heart and body, I was being informed by this greater LOVE. This was out-and-out rejected by those who tried to redirect me to their smaller god. As a small child, I upset my mother when I told her I didn’t want to go to church anymore. When she asked me why, I referred to the prominent ladies at the church as the “ladies with the plastic faces,” adding that they seemed unaware that the truth of what they really felt was louder than their outfits.
Religious people told me I must believe in what the church said. The Loving Presence informed me that we need not believe in anything, because when we BE–LEAVE in something we are “leaving our being” to accept something that was interpreted for us by other humans. Rather, we could directly KNOW or BE–COME (come into being with our internal Light Source once again). Parts of the Bible resonate with me – the parts where Jesus and others spoke of these things. And my testimony is that this is true. Many times this Presence of LOVE overwhelmed me so that I fell to my knees and wept. It is a gift that lives within each and every one of us, and I have been shown that those who have been touched by this Divine Love are many, and they are everywhere.
So of all the given categories and words provided to me in this bizarre and limiting world, none of them fully explained or supported my life story: Contact with nonhuman intelligence, visions, Divine visitations and transmissions, and bioenergetic events. The Presence informed me many times over my lifetime to not attach to any existing model, frame, or ideology from the world because the old world is transforming… soon. Ah yes, “soon.” This Presence clearly does not know time from our perspective! The time it has taken from being shown these things since childhood has felt like, well, an eternity. And yet, I know, and many others do as well, that we have arrived – not only in time, but to the full knowing that LOVE is all there is, and LOVE is eternal. Our adherence to a false world was temporary, and that is why it is fading. If we are actually rooted in this Universal Light, we will move with it, into the expression of More.
We were born connected to this LOVE. Then we forgot. And that’s okay. We are already forgiven for losing sight of this Light within. We have been manipulated to believe we are less than we are. Period. Story over. Align fully with LOVE and the Divine Presence awakens within you and heals. When this Knowing is restored, darkness loses all power over us. At this pivotal moment in these greater cycles of time, our True Creator rises within us, and is here to ask you, which world do you prefer?
I and many others like myself are simply here to attest to this actual LOVE, to give you permission to speak your truth and to be reborn into the real world again. Do you remember it? I have given you lots of words here, but what it all boils down to is, we are on the threshold of a beautiful new world, and it is filled with the infinite potential of our wildest imaginings.
Eileen is an author, mystic, songstress, and is actively listening, unpacking, and integrating the Divine codes within. After many numinous experiences, she receives guiding messages for our evolution in consciousness and is here to help others remember this inner cosmic doorway too. She has been an invited speaker and facilitator on the topics of the Divine Feminine, evolving consciousness, and the deeper meaning of extraterrestrial, or interdimensional contact.
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9 thoughts on “The Wild Imaginings of an Experiencer”
Beautiful. It’s amazing so many of us made it, but this New Reality is finally here. Now we have to create our lives anew. Thank you for this wonderful reminder, Eileen.
I’m honored to know you and share the path forward. Thank you, Zuzanna.
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You write so beautifully and honestly from your heart Eileen. I see the footprints of your inner child dancing and singing between the lines. Thank you 💜
Thank you for seeing me, dear soul. Thank you for seeing your Self reflected here. Honored to know you.
Yes! Yes! Yes! UUN-GA-CHAKA!!!
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There is this very interesting lead-in between the awakened state and the ET issue….there is a group on Facebook that is exploring this and I have found it quite interesting and it recognizes the relationship between a broad range of phenomenon that are associated with or tied to transcendent states. Instead of dealing with this spectrum of experience in a belief way, it is an interesting open exploration. It might be worth a look.
I grew up feeling like something was missing in the church. I never could put my finger on it until my own awakening happened and I found some early Christian writings which the church considers heretical but were some of the most sophisticated writings on awakening. I have spent the last decade and a half researching this and I am now putting this together into a manuscript, a topic that keeps coming ’round and ’round again for many of us. Our skill at taking spirit and turning it into something else is legendary.
Your group does sound interesting, tho I did leave Facebook months ago. I’m happy to hear that some experiencers are digging a bit deeper than the given narratives. Many good wishes to you and your new book! Keep me posted.