Recovering from our Addiction to the Old World


I’m amazed when it hits me how long I’ve been sharing this material. People ask me how I keep going when there has been no worldly reward for this work. That’s easy. It’s the glorious energy of this Source-I AM Field that keeps pulling me forward. Even though I resisted this “calling” for many years, I accept it now, and I’ll continue for as long as I am here. The article below is updated / edited from a previous blog, “Adapting to Grace,” in July 2014.

I have found myself stumbling upon highly relevant transmissions that I language-translated from roughly 2005 to present. These messages appear to be a series of sign-posts to help prepare us for these times. I realize, now more than ever, that I need and welcome these feeling reminders that infuse me with the Truth. You see, I can honestly say that I am no longer addicted to the old mental-grid. I am in active recovery. Lucidity is not “one day,” but “one moment at a time,” as I adapt to my wholeness.

During my “contact,” and/or numinous bioenergetic doses of Source Love over my lifetime, I was informed that the process of exiting “the existing grid” and adapting to our Whole and Natural Selves, would be THE most challenging addiction for humanity to overcome. This energy taught me ways to return to this present-moment natural state, and made it clear that I couldn’t bring my past wounds and trauma with me. They shared that if one can re-identify, recall, and re-emerge within the Universal, natural state of being, then ONE is HERE NOW. And when we are HERE NOW, all past programming, all past conditioning, all fear of being psychically attacked, or being sucked into the associated quicksand vibrations of victimhood, doom and despair, cannot locate you. Why? Because instead of existing, participating, and buying-into the limitations of a conditioned existence, you NOW exist, ONE with SOURCE. THIS is where you recall and act from your Infinite Self and BEing. This is the shift. This is the doorway that every single human being has the opportunity to step through now. It is the doorway to a higher-octave reality. It is a doorway within. Where are you?

In the past, when I would stream or translate this wisdom into language for individuals or groups, it became clear what was happening. The human intellect was being purposely bypassed by this higher-vibrational Intelligence, and for many this left nothing but a glazing over of the eyes. Even though the vibrational messages were activating the infinitely spacious heart-field, I would literally watch the mind-grid seduce them back into the smaller, yet familiar lattice of existence. The intellect of the listeners was engaged with the pure programming of seeking only “the comfort zone of the known.” Through this I learned that language was the barrier and I began to back off from sharing it in this way. I continued to experiment with the translation until I realized that if I was willing to be more vulnerable, and enter the Presence in real time, I could take it to a whole new level.

Back then, I was all-too aware that this work was not exactly popular, which made it a poor source of revenue. And I was aware that it was because this I AM-consciousness was not willing to provide exciting, dramatic stories about the cosmos and all of it’s dimensions, labels, and characters to enable us to stay in what they termed “your repetitive, closed loops of consciousness” – which I learned is yet another defense against actually meeting this Presence NOW. The I AM Field simply kept repeating…

Yes, we are familiar with the stories… now, are you ready to be who you are? Because when you are BEING who you are, you will not desire to engage us in a game of trivial pursuit! More than likely you will lose ALL interest in getting answers to questions. Questions and answers are symbolic of your perceived separation from Source. You will go direct, and you will find far more exciting things to BE and DO in the Presence.

Language can keep us locked into the “existing grid.” It is conscious FEELING that leads us directly to our ACTUAL experience of Infinite Oneness and Power. One of the first teaching messages within this I AM Field was, “Know what you feel so that you may FEEL what you KNOW.” It took me years to fully grok the power and potency of that message. There is nothing I can say that can make you take this conscious step into owning your Infinite Self. EVERY SINGLE INDIVIDUAL MUST MAKE THIS CHOICE FOR THEMSELVES. All I can do is perhaps inspire others, from the tools I was given to the telling of my own inner-dimensional travels.

I noticed in past experience, that if I inquired with clients as to why they seemed so excited about meeting these frequencies before, but then seem unable to actively stay with it, they had some form of this response:

“I’m busy. It’s too hard to find the time to sit still and give voice to feeling what I feel so that I may generate conscious resonance with this Love. I know that I have the power to re-identify, and re-create from this ALL-KNOWING Source Field, but in the end, it’s just too hard… and I don’t have the privacy to give voice to what I’m really feeling anyway.” 

In other words, what your programmed self is saying is,

“Thank you, but my egoic self is still invested in perpetuating this unreal world and existence. It may not be a perfect life, but in the end, I’m okay with being controlled and manipulated by something outside of mySelf. I’d rather pretend that I’m powerless and I don’t know anything. And not only that, I have a job, a family, friends… I have a false image to uphold in this false world. I must keep consistency with what I have agreed to in the past. Yes, it’s too hard. I’d rather physically die in order to re-turn to Source, and recall All That I AM. And I’m okay with returning again and again, until I’m ready to embrace and live my whole being in Truth.”

Compare this to the addiction of substance abuse. If you have a friend or family member who has addictive behaviors, and they are saying these power-less statements to you, I do believe that you would more clearly recognize the absurdity of this position and defense. And guess what? Most of us are addicted to the small world, and some are only beginning to get glimmers that there may be a problem, and it isn’t wise to agree to this tiny controlled existence. Sadly, we spend a lot of our time and energy enabling others to stay addicted and support/perpetuate the insanity as well. Even so-called spiritual and religious practices can be part of the smallness-addiction. Want to know a clear sign that you still exist in the controlled grid of existence? If your God or Creator-oriented beliefs and activities always keep you in perpetual seeking beyond, or “out there,” and one never “actually” arrives. I know you’ve heard this all before, but it’s the truth. In reality, there is nothing to seek. YOU are IT. You ALL-READY reside in the Infinite Field. It is simply a shift into a feeling-based perspective – from the (highly manipulatable) mind-based grid to the empowered, Heart-Knowing Field.

It’s really time to exit the language-based grid. The work that I have trained for my entire life – through “contact” and in practice with Source Energy, is to share or broadcast this vibration of the Infinite Self. And since we truly are all ONE, those that are in the midst of these frequencies may find and identify with their SELVES too. It took me years to integrate and re-identify with these frequencies of the natural and whole SELF, and I’m still not fully and constantly HERE… but through these blessings, I do have the tools and the ability to lock into it at will. A little secret? I wrote this article because on one particular morning I was overwhelmed with unusual feelings of despair, fatigue, and hopelessness. It goes to show you how quickly we can get ungrounded or off-balance as we continue to navigate and interact with the existing world-grid, and allow the disempowering, or fear-based frequencies to grab hold and suck us under. I then recalled as I had been shown over the years – even as I flailed within the quicksand of doom – that all I need do is re-call the feeling-frequency of who I AM into my solar plexus as I speak out loud the truth of what I am feeling in that moment, with total honesty and innocence. It’s one of the greatest tools that this Presence gifted to me.

The rapid shift into Peaceful Presence is nothing short of astonishing. Had I been experiencing psychic attack? Probably. But don’t give it any energy or credibility. It’s simply another stupid story that I/We no longer choose to live within. Remember, those lower-vibrational, virtual-reality beings cannot find you when you lock into the Heart-Present. And when a critical mass is reached, of present-moment humans BEing, they will no longer have a playground, and no one left to agree to play their silly virtual games. We will all be exploring the joy of actual wholeness – in form – and they themselves will be forced to flee, or feel the transformational power of Source Love too.

I KNOW that the transformation of humanity is set to trigger a massive, domino effect throughout ALL consciousness. And this is the massive potential that lies in your individual choice to fully BE who you are. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for? I say, we are the ones who are arriving as whole beings in our existing form. It is our natural state. This is the return of Christ Consciousness. This is the return of the Divine Feminine. And you are the ONE. Remember, the doorway is HERE, and “the key to freedom is in your steps.”

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8 thoughts on “Recovering from our Addiction to the Old World

  1. moving through,allowing movement through can get pretty thick sometimes…Your Words Create Flow. Thank You Em…remove the S from exist,you have Your exit…

    1. It’s thick all right! Last night I had dream downloads about this threshold and then I synchronistically came across this old post. It was open on my computer, along with several other open files of transcribed messages. I did not open these files and there’s no one else around to have done it! I took the one on top and posted it. Later I’ll be investigating why the others are open too. Always nice to receive your thoughts and feeling impressions, John. Maybe you’d like to participate in my Experiencer series? 😉

  2. You sure there’s no one else around ;-)…Yes I would Love to…the technology and I are working out some details :-)…

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