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When the bulk of the music came – beginning in the mid-1990s – it was through a resonance language. Sometimes the lyrics were from my perspective, as someone who was being deeply and sweetly transformed by this Presence – with the bioenergetic (Kundalini) openings, the gifts, the messages. And other times they were clearly from the perspective of the Mother, the Soul, the Divine Feminine. The “Ooh Song” was one that was a direct message from Her. It came in the night, in dreamtime. As with all the messages from Her, I would weep with ecstasy as I wrote them out – oftentimes in the dark, huddled over my keyboard, scratching out the words and tones that poured through. I would resonate with Her feelings of immense love and deep pain all at once.
I wrote and then performed these musical messages quite a lot over those years, satisfied to be called out as an artist who had a pretty voice, but wrote and sang such strange songs. Many people didn’t understand why I chose to sing songs like this. They wanted to “coach” me to be more business savvy, to sing more popular genres that they could relate to, and the kinds of songs that “sell”. I began to feel like She must feel, and like our Souls must feel – irrelevant, devalued, misunderstood, and misplaced. I was always deeply grateful for the ones in the audience that were able to feel and receive Her sweetness in the present, as I had. Some would simply start crying and beg me to tell them what was happening.
It’s all She’s ever wanted – to be invited back into our bodies, our hearts, our lives; to help us remember that we are designed to be balanced, whole, beautiful beings living in harmony with the Earth. She will no longer live as a faraway myth. She is returning now, to those who have the courage to welcome Her Home.