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So, You’re Contemplating Suicide…

Stop. Just for a moment. Long enough to contemplate this:

Secretly, so has just about everyone else. What if we had all followed through with it? And then later discovered that life could’ve been far more amazing if we had just paused for a moment, and considered something other than what we’ve been told about what life is… what death is. Instead of killing our physical bodies and “dying” in order to “end it all” or meet back up with our eternal essence, we could shift our perspective and invite our soul to return to our physicality here. After all, this is Source’s original design for us — to be balanced and whole — on Earth as it is in Heaven. We simply got turned around, discounted our soul, and began giving our power to others who seemed to know how soul-less life worked here — through organized religion, banks, politics, education, etc. Guess what? You’ve outgrown this system. Congratulations!

Get this: Life, as a concept, as we were always told and always thought it was, is already over. Can you see this yet? No need to kill yourself. Most everything you thought was life here, is actually dead or dying. And what you want to kill — you — are eternal LIFE! Look around. The crazy world is crumbling down. Let it! In this moment, you still have your life, your consciousness, your inspiration, your gifts, and endless possibilities in the natural world — beyond the limited framework or meaningless scripts that were given to you over the course of your life. We didn’t have the time or energy to ask questions back then. Everyone just agreed. This was reality. Go for it! Jump in and make it work. Hide who you really are and create an outer identity and story of success. When that didn’t feel right, and you couldn’t make it work anymore (like family and friends seemed to be able to do), you were diagnosed as depressed or mentally ill. Many medicines were created to “heal” you back into the system, to shut off those gnawing feelings that were shouting at you to pay attention to what is actual… to what is real.

More than likely, it’s not time for you to physically die. But it is time to allow the death of a false world. It’s time to reevaluate who you are, what your soul loves, and open to a larger definition of success. But you must stick around to unravel this! It’s okay not to know what’s next. I certainly don’t know exactly what’s next. But when I come up against the walls that so many others are coming to, and I’m having those same thoughts that physical death is the only way through; I pause, pray, and listen. I do something that was taught to me by nonhuman intelligence, through many visitations over my lifetime. (Yes. It’s true. Buy the book to learn more. Invite me to speak, get a soul reading, create a healing circle, so I can continue to grow my real work and support others through this time.) I was taught to speak my feelings out loud, “I feel frightened. I feel confused. I feel alone. I feel I don’t belong. There appears to be no job, no money, no support to continue with the charade. Father-Mother God, Creator, Source: show me how this is done. I’m listening. I’m willing to heal so that I can feel and directly know the Truth.” Through honesty and innocence, and hearing the vibrational truth of your own voice, a resonant field of energy is activated. The response may not come in words, but if you still have a feeling heart, you will know what you need to know through this resonant language of the universe.

For so many, a panic sets in when there’s no patriarchal authority out there to continue to preach, teach, and tell us who we are. Personally, I stopped listening to the god out there — the one that tells us what to think and how to feel in a virtual world. I began to trust the Source of Power within. I began to understand what life could look like if we listened more deeply. What if we simply needed to remember our natural abilities? The ones that had been conditioned out of us? What if we remembered how to commune with the actual authority, or Author-of-It (author-it-y) that has always been within?

Why should we kill ourselves when we finally and fully wake up to a system that does not serve us? This seems a bit backwards. And what is even more difficult to come to terms with is: it never did serve us! You bought into it because the authority out there, or your family or other influential people in your life, did the same — for generations. What other benevolent examples of life did we have? Little to none. And if we did decide to explore other possibilities, beyond this limited reality, we were called mentally ill or crazy.

We are all coming up against the individual and collective walls that have seemingly cordoned us off from the Eternal. I must say, this is quite an accomplishment for the architects of the false world. We believed that we were nothing without these rules and definitions from the system. How crazy is that? We believed this virtual reality to be our only source for sustenance, joy, and spiritual guidance! As it turns out, the eternal is within us — not as an ungrounded, new-agey platitude, but as Truth, and in harmony with the natural world. Remember that Jesus character, and many others from the past, who said this very same thing? “The Kingdom of Heaven is within.” Wake up! It’s not a platitude. It’s real.

Many of us are coming to understand these things now. It’s hard. It’s scary. It’s the Unknown. And the heart, my friends, is the foyer to the real world. Give yourselves a chance to feel and remember this. Push through the fear to discover wholly new ways to live both on, and with, the Earth. Stand at the base of that illusory wall and close your eyes. Breathe. Invite your Truth. Do not run from the reality of this lucid moment. Go ahead and feel-speak every single one of your fears. I promise you, when you open your eyes again, you will see that you not only survived what you were absolutely convinced would kill you, but you will feel more power and more conviction than ever before — to keep going. Then when you stand at the next seemingly impenetrable wall, with even more power and lucidity, you will dissolve that wall again. You are not a failure. You are the hero — emerging from an old and dying story.

We have been living in an upside-down reality. There is a way through it, but it may not be in the way you think. The wall is fake. You are real. We don’t have to physically die to truly live. But we do need the courage to end the idea of what we all thought, or were taught to believe, life was.

I’m grateful to have helped a few more people this week who were on the brink, at the wall. I thank them for the courage to reorient to the natural authority and system within. IT is waiting to bust down those walls and fully return home. Let it. We could use a few more heroes.

Photo by Karen Kuehn

Eileen Meyer is an author, an intuitive healer, and musical artist. The Book is Koyopa: Contact Within — the Plumed Serpent Rises. You are invited to “Like” the Facebook Page, and visit to learn more about her story, her music, and her spiritual work. You may also Subscribe to her news and updates for free — for as long as you need encouragement, and a healthy mirror of who you truly are.

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