I have a rather unique holiday-time lesson this year – learning how to receive. What is it about our culture that strongly influences us to “close the receiving door” – calling it ‘selfish’ and self-centered to turn the giving machine back towards ourselves? I for one never had much in the way of role models to demonstrate the fine art of receiving.
If I were a company I would’ve gone out of business long ago. My ‘shipping door’ has always been very active. My company is great at shipping and accounts payable, while receiving and accounts receivable aren’t managed very well at all. All of this has been brought to the forefront of my consciousness due to my physical body demanding that we take a closer look at these imbalances.
For the past few weeks I have been suffering from a very painful form of tendinitis in my left shoulder. When I tuned in and asked for healing and help, I got the above message about receiving. I love how there always seems to be a teaching or message before the body will put any energy into healing and restoration. Once I ‘get it’, or a client ‘gets it’, and begins to apply what the feeling-physical body has suggested, there is a graceful movement and transformation to achieve balance once again. I love that!
Yesterday I had a client who said she didn’t feel comfortable making a donation for a session ahead of time. She wanted proof first that my healing-guidance sessions had value to her before she pulled out her credit card. Whenever anyone asks for help, I immediately do prayer work whether they offer cash resources or not. This work isn’t about money, and my guidance has made this very clear. Let’s just say that my income arrives by donations, as well as in other ways – ways that have been for the most part unpredictable.
Following Guidance, I set up a session for this person. A few minutes before the scheduled time, I did my usual meditative prayer requests and then I asked for an opportunity to receive something wonderful from the session. Long story short, I got to experience first hand what it’s like to try to enter someone else’s receiving department to offer a gift when the person I’m working with has more defenses than Fort Knox. My work is not intellectual. I must find a feeling-heart opening in order to begin receiving guidance and wisdom to pass on to the client. Alas, there was no entry here. I stopped the session and wished her well in finding what she needed elsewhere.
It was a gift for me to experience what it must be like for Spirit interacting with me sometimes – attempting to respond to my requests with lots of incoming goodness while I’m too busy and distracted with the pouring out of energy over in the shipping department.
So as terribly selfish as it sounds, my homework these days is to continue to ask for, and be open to an abundance of opportunities to receive. In other words, I am learning how to experience the ‘gift’ of receiving graciously.
I’ll keep you posted on my progress. Meanwhile, I’d really love to hear from readers about their experiences around the fine art of receiving. Has this ever been an issue with you?
Tis the Season for Receiving!